Duvet
This week is strangely melancholic. Don't know how to explain.
Maybe I miss Alex more than I thought I would. Maybe I'm just immersed in deep thoughts.
For very few little seconds a death wish fades in and out.
**cell phone interrupts my thoughts and the sound of the classic guitar**
I feel there's so much awaiting for me but at the same time I'm so afraid to deal with it all. Great responsibility swings between the hammer-on and the facial expression.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I would write and say that I am tired of many things, but actually, I am not. I guess I learned that I shouldn't be very excited about the future. And that might be the reason why I am not even a little excited for what's about to come. For new experiences. Sometimes I feel like my soul is tired, even though I'm not doing anything.
Maybe it got tired of mankind, maybe it got tired of such poor intellect.
I am very sorry for people. Not saying I am better than they are. I just think we need to let go of this "we know everything" concept and accept that we have no idea of what happens in our enviroment. Governments hiding information, people killing each other, plagues spreading, ice melting, hunger growing, incurable diseases searching for new targets. We don't know anything at all.
The presumption of mankind can be killing someone close to you in this right moment. But what do we know? What can we do?
Fate can be changed if you're willing to change...
Maybe I miss Alex more than I thought I would. Maybe I'm just immersed in deep thoughts.
For very few little seconds a death wish fades in and out.
**cell phone interrupts my thoughts and the sound of the classic guitar**
I feel there's so much awaiting for me but at the same time I'm so afraid to deal with it all. Great responsibility swings between the hammer-on and the facial expression.
I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I would write and say that I am tired of many things, but actually, I am not. I guess I learned that I shouldn't be very excited about the future. And that might be the reason why I am not even a little excited for what's about to come. For new experiences. Sometimes I feel like my soul is tired, even though I'm not doing anything.
Maybe it got tired of mankind, maybe it got tired of such poor intellect.
I am very sorry for people. Not saying I am better than they are. I just think we need to let go of this "we know everything" concept and accept that we have no idea of what happens in our enviroment. Governments hiding information, people killing each other, plagues spreading, ice melting, hunger growing, incurable diseases searching for new targets. We don't know anything at all.
The presumption of mankind can be killing someone close to you in this right moment. But what do we know? What can we do?
Fate can be changed if you're willing to change...
I think you have a very valid point of view. In order to allow ourselves to learn, interpret objectively and evolve as people, we have to admit that we know nothing for sure. When we become so sure in our ways or facts, we limit ourselves and our environment.
I miss you and will talk with you soon, Ayumi! I'm still thinking of you constantly.
- Alex
I liked the visit I paid here, and I also liked what I read, it's pretty interesting how some of your reasoning is just so similar to mine, in terms of the absurdity we face every day when we see people dragging themselves into the blind world of politics and religions... and how much we can learn when we get ready to open our eyes to see the world and that so many things could be a lot different if people weren't so obsessed for their own comfort and money and they don't get to ever open their minds for reasoning or some kind of good philosophy.
Hey, bitch, you know I like you a lot, although we've been apart, I wanna say I miss those times we used to talk and have some kind of fun! Best wishes in whatever you engage yourself in.
Kisses,
Renne