Tonight is my first night without my butter cookie, Alex.
Sad face :(

He'll be home soon and will be able to pet his kitties and go out with his friends.
But I'll stay here... sad day.
I've been trying not to cry. Trying to show everyone that I can be strong. But it's so hard.


I love you, butter cookie.
My kokoreecha x)

And I'll never forgive you for taking Loco Roco away from me xP

That's me trying panties at the Hope store two days ago...
Too fat to fit them lol

> Click here to listen <

(I'm too lazy to translate it >_< )
This song reminds me of my mom, somehow....

Kaze wa minami kaze ga suki yo
Suteki na hito no ashioto ga kikoeru
Ame wa konu ka ame ga suki yo
Kasa nado sasazu machinaka wo aruku no
Sou yo tawai mo nai dekigoto ga
Watashi ni wa totemo ii hitotoki

Sora wa aki no iro ga suki yo
Aisuru hito no kuchibue ga kikoeru
Yume wa amai yume ga suki yo
Hitori de aruku shiawase ga tada you
Sou yo tawai mo nai dekigoto ga
Watashi ni wa totemo ii hitotoki

I actually didn’t think I would feel this way right now.

I spent almost a day and a half with my best friend, the only one I can really call a best friend. Ten years of friendship. The best friend I’ve ever had.

These last hours were so nostalgic. I am crying as I write this …..

You know, all those years that we lived thinking nothing would stop us, that we would never be apart. The plans we made, thinking that we would always be together.

Our little life… our music lessons…

All the little gifts, films, laughs…afternoons and nights spent so mindlessly. We never really thought life would take a different course.

I remember everything. Since we were kids.

But now, I don’t know… sometimes I feel you further than what you’ve ever been! Even when I was living in Moscow, the distance between us didn’t seem this big.

Maybe it’s just me, I don’t know… but I do know that I love you as a brother and you know that… you were always there for me and I am so sorry if I ever hurt you or made something wrong.

These last years with you were the best in my life.

You will always be my Kynchan. The only one that remembers my birthday and call me at midnight, the one that leaves me sleeping and goes out to buy chocolate…

I love you Kynchan! I want you in my life till the end!

And learn how to treat Gackt well… we’ll see him soon !

Am I able to say.... 15 days?





I think a new singer is about to be born....
Let's wait and see what happens ....

I am...

Simple. Complicated. Truthful. Sincere. Loveable. Hateful. Cheerful most of the time. Silly. Clumsy.


I like video games. Computers. Simple life. Trees. Cats. Dogs. Sloth (I don't know how to spell the plural form x_x). Languages. Music. Politics. Aliens. Quantic Physics. Magic. Singing (??)


I fear death. Abduction. Diseases. Losing friends, family. Shots (injections). Losing hearing. Losing my voice. Airplanes. Cockroaches.


I love Alex. My parents. My brother. My grandma and grandpa. Kaynan (Kynchan). Ryan. Alan. Justin. My cat (Yuichi). My dog (Eevee).


I don't know what to believe when it comes to Deities.


Will be adding more soon....