I actually didn’t think I would feel this way right now.

I spent almost a day and a half with my best friend, the only one I can really call a best friend. Ten years of friendship. The best friend I’ve ever had.

These last hours were so nostalgic. I am crying as I write this …..

You know, all those years that we lived thinking nothing would stop us, that we would never be apart. The plans we made, thinking that we would always be together.

Our little life… our music lessons…

All the little gifts, films, laughs…afternoons and nights spent so mindlessly. We never really thought life would take a different course.

I remember everything. Since we were kids.

But now, I don’t know… sometimes I feel you further than what you’ve ever been! Even when I was living in Moscow, the distance between us didn’t seem this big.

Maybe it’s just me, I don’t know… but I do know that I love you as a brother and you know that… you were always there for me and I am so sorry if I ever hurt you or made something wrong.

These last years with you were the best in my life.

You will always be my Kynchan. The only one that remembers my birthday and call me at midnight, the one that leaves me sleeping and goes out to buy chocolate…

I love you Kynchan! I want you in my life till the end!

And learn how to treat Gackt well… we’ll see him soon !